The idea of being in control helps a bit, I think. I just need to keep thinking of it that way.

Actually at the beginning of this thread the idea would have made me quite panicky....but now it only makes me rather nervous. I don't know what was said on here that helped so much or else I would try to keep it going :P I really hope I don't forget about this thread and lose all my progress. I will need to come back and read everything again sometime. I feel like I am finally starting towards my goal of putting my worry to rest though. With baby steps. you guys are all awesome.