I often feel like i need to cut, or burn. Possibly even jump from something that could injure. But i don't know why and i sometimes do. Sometimes i can't feel anything so i just wanna do it again to feel something to feel some rush, like the rush you get while riding a big rollercoaster. I don't know, maybe my life's boring or something. I can control it but every time i wanna do it i don't because i know it's wrong. But if i do then i feel ashamed and i just do it again and i feel more ashamed and i just feel like i've hurt everyone that i love. I don't know. It's a weird cycle. Maybe i'm just crazy like people say.