Thank you all for your support.

In Australia after a person works for 10 years under one employer they are then owed 3 months of holiday leave, otherwise know as long service leave. He does work very hard. He is open to talking about how I am feeling.

While he is away another T is taking his place. He has suggested that I see her each week. I currently see him once a week. He said if it wasn't working out that I could cancel, but it would be best to set the appointments in place.

He said there would be sadness (got that), logic (got that) and anger (wonder where that is).

I have met this other T and I dont feel that comfortable with her. Its like she is the one that needs help and I need to hold back.

I cannot contact him while he is away.

I do go to a craft group and a mosaics group. I do try to keep myself busy. I will try to take it down to week by week.

MMMMMMhhhhhhhh. Welcome to the twilight zone.