I'm sorry you were having such a day, and I'm glad that other car didn't crash into you - that is very scary to have happen! But they are just frightening events, and not signs that you should not go to therapy.

Maybe it is the email reminder issue that makes you feel like there is a sign or hidden message?

Talk with your therapist about all the things in your post - it is all important.

I have blown off therapy before, in my 5+ years of therapy. In fact I just did it last week, when I only had one session because of the holiday. I let her know in advance that I wasn't coming, but I have also decided at the last minute to not go. She has never been angry about it. She might, if I made a habit of it because it would inconvenience her as far as her scheduling (for example if I am the last session of the day, or if another patient was needing an emergency session, etc).

She's always just been curious about what was going on and we talk about it. I always come away feeling relieved and understood, and with a better perspective about what was going on and how I reacted.

We are human beings, we are not "model" patients. We have a wide range of emotions, and reactions and therapy is just the place for talking about all this