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Nov 29, 2012, 11:56 AM
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Today I am dealing with the damage my depression has caused my family. See, my ex tried and tried to convince me to get help and I pretty much held my own and tried to do it all by myself.
Well, "all by myself" is what I got for my trouble.
I have seen a Psychiatrist, have a counselor, and read a lot about depression and how I can help myself when not in therapy.
But today I dont like me very much because of all the damage, pain, unrest, hurt, anger, tears, and more that my selfishness and stupidity has brought my (now ex) wife and daughter.
To their credit, my ex is the jewel she always was and is helping me cope with my issues while talking with me about our 23 years together that is no more. My daughter loves her daddy, always has, always will, and wants to see me get better. She also really wants me to come home, move back in, and restore our family. My ex is happy we no longer fight, welcomes me over to the house to visit with open arms, but wants nothing of a reconciliation that includes me moving back in. I hurt her too much and cut her too deeply emotionally for that to happen.
So that is where I am today.
Ya'll keep fighting the good fight and we will all prevail one day!
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