so i think...well let me rephrase that...i hope this thanksgiving was the beginning of a new tradition for my bio mom and me. let me give a brief explenation.
my mom gave me up for adoption when i was born and i have had nothing but...hmmm...hatred for her since as far back as i can remember. always tried to come back into my life but was always to drunk or high and i always ended up putting her back on a bus not caring where she ended up. well about a year ago i heard from my grandmother (who is my adopted mother) that my mom has gotten help for her mental issues has stopped drinking and doing drugs and all this. well i am skeptical of course because i have heard all of this before. but about 5 months ago i gave in and sent her an email just to see how she was doing. one thing led to another i was inviting her to thanksgiving dinner. i had spoken to her on the phone she sounded clear and happy. we talked about the past alot. and she answered all of my questions with honest answers. she apologized which is all i really wanted. i forgave. but the thought of her coming down put me into the psych hospital for two weeks i was so freaked out. but she came we had a good time and no one got hurt. it was awesome. i made a step forward in my life. one of my lifelong goals has been met. forgive my mom and spend some quality time with her. i dont really know what to do now. its like i have held onto all this anger for so long i almost feel empty, ya know? i dont know. just thought i would share my experience with yall. i have to say i think it was hands down the best thanksgiving i have ever had. what do you think?

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