That is very cruel. He married you for some reason. Maybe he is a christian, but God wants you to treat people in a loving and caring way. My God anyway is a loving God. I'm so sorry this has happened to you. Work with your therapist to help you build positive body image and positive thinking. When you learn to love yourself, you won't need his "Idea" of beautiful. I believe you are a very beautiful person. Don't allow others to have power over your self esteem.