We'll I saw my T for the last time time for at least the next 6 weeks. I typically would see my T on Friday mornings as well because we take the same spin class but because of my treatment starting tomorrow that's not possible for a while. I'm going to miss spin! My T said this would be our last time meeting and after my treatment program ends it's not expected that I would continue seeing her again. I then asked her: "are you saying that because you don't want me to come back and see you again?" T: "no I'm stating that it's not expected that you should return but that it's up to you what is best and she is fine with whatever decisions I make". Me: "Do you think you can help me?" T:"yes but we need to work out a plan. We started out with one but we got off track as you slowly fell into a depression". I told my T that I plan on coming back to her and that I'm going to miss her. She said that I can keep in touch with her with updates if I like. I gave her a hug and she hugged me back While I'm going to really miss T I'm looking forward to the program I'm going to. It's a program that is well known, respected, and has a waiting list.

My 'intensive outpatient professionals program' starts tomorrow. Wish me luck! - hope to get rid of: anxiety, depression, SI, and no sleep. I hope to get my memory back as well and thinking becomes less difficult. My head hurts when I try to think to much and when it comes to feelings I just want to cry. Depression SUCKS!