These days I took a break from work because I have to study for this chartered accountancy paper...I don't know I thought i'd be relieved to be away from work...I hate work you know...I despise being around all those self centered people who couldn't care less about me... So when I got the vacation I was relieved to finally be alone and away...But being at home I still feel nothing...I don't feel happy no matter what I do...I used to like being alone...but now I feel hollow.. Maybe its because now I have absolutely nobody I can call a friend...In the past there has always been somebody whom I have tried befriending but i have simply given up making the effort after getting knocked out time and again...I try the same things that used to make me happy before...but things don't feel the same.. I feel like a machine that keeps going day in and day out and i don't have any passion left in my life...i want to talk to someone with whom i can be myself....i want a shoulder to cry on...I've become so numb that I've even forgotten how to cry...I want to cry and i want to feel again....it's come to the point where i just walk the same streets and see all the familiar faces on that street and i cant talk to anybody.. All i can do is act like a hollow lifeless machine each day....