I finally went to my mom and told her that I was getting help with a consuler at my school and we went to a docter and to she gave me a mood stabalizer to start off with. Ive been taking this for a week and Ive been doing pretty good. My old thoughts still haunt me, but I think I might finally get better this time. Today was kind of hard for me though, my teacher was going over depression in my Psych. class and I had to leave the room. I felt like I was being put on the spotlight and I felt like everyones eyes were on me, yet I knew no one really was. I felt like she was screaming her look this is what is wrong with her, I related to it and it was scary. We were going over a lot of types of disorders and everyone seemed to think some people are crazy and then we got to depression and I thought "thats me, Im on medication for that". My old depressed thoughts started to seep in my thought line and I had to get out. I wanted to cry. I am doing better but Ive just been so alone lately, its hard not to think about it.