After binging heavily for about 2-3 weeks, I'm now in the restricting phase. I overdosed on laxatives a few days ago and couldn't eat for days and I was stuck on the toilet for hours at a time. Now I'm really hungry but can't bare the thought of eating anything. I really freaking hate this but it's so much better than binging and purging several times a day.

I like the high I get from restricting and I know I shouldn't. Eating disorders are confusing!
#rant