I am trying to understand wear you are coming from but problem is I am having mixed feelings after all the scars, I really don't know but seems I am living a lifestyle like a robot I have had a long day today sorry, to me after being married 23 years everyday is like the next do not get me wrong I really love my wife with all my heart but the flame is not there for me like it ust to be after what I went through, I have had a couple beers not drunk but a few.Why am I excited when someone shows me interest besides my wife ,makes me feel younger or energized
, wanted, wanted or needed not used ,is that wrong !! YES it is I need to feel used beat down that is getting old for me I do not usually feel like this but why does girls make men feel like this. I love my wife but what happened is my problem........