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Nov 29, 2012, 10:53 PM
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Member Since: Jun 2006
Posts: 133
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Originally Posted by hankster
Other men and couples? What does he say about that? What do you think about that?
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I have always known about his sexual curiosity. I know that at some point in his childhood he was sexually molested. He has all the earmarks of an abused child. This doesn’t come from Criminal Minds or any other crime show, it comes from the things he's let slip over the years (usually while drunk and always denied the next day) and his reactions to various circumstances. He chose to work in childcare just out of highschool (not an obvious choice for a male), out of a need to protect children I would guess. He has questioned his sexuality, probably because he became aroused during his abuse. I am guessing that he did tell someone, and instead of offering help they swept it under a rug. Or maybe he didn’t tell anyone, but suspected they knew and did nothing. Either way at some point he decided that he was going to put up walls so no one could ever hurt him again. And he sunk in to depression and has stayed there ever since. The excitement he craves is his way of feeling alive because a part of him is dead inside. No one can reach him, no one can help him because he can’t admit what’s happened. At various points in his life he's self medicated with drugs, alcohol, porn or taboo sex. I feel he thinks the world owes him something for what he endured and thus his needs have always come first. He feel no empathy for others because he thinks nothing compares to the pain he carries. He has isolated himself because it’s easier and safe. He lies as easily as he tells the truth. First and foremost he needs the world to believe that he is okay, even if that means weaving a tangled web of deception. None of this will ever change until he has the strength to face his demons.
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