I really like your Bruce Lee quote, likewater. I had a man come up to me once years ago while I was working at my old job, and having a very tough day where people were just ruthless. He was demonstrating martial arts with me. I found it to be a little strange because he came out of nowhere, and just started telling me something very similar to your quote. He must've seen me on the verge of tears. Anyway, he told me to remember what he said. I felt a lot better, and thought to myself, "I want to thank him," and tried looking for him, but he was gone. This will sound weird, but I kinda think he was an angel. I was about to walk out the door and quit before he came up to me.
The whole job hunt can leave some people feeling like they're garbage because of all the rejection. With me though, I feel guilty because I'm being so selective. People in my life are getting very frustrated with me b/c I won't just accept anything. There is an abundance of jobs where I live, so I can afford to be a little picky, however, these are excruciatingly boring jobs that many people are not interested in. I just accepted one of these jobs with a staffing agency, but it's ok with me for now b/c it's just a temp job and I need a paycheck. I also accepted another job (today everyone decided to call me back), but I think I'm going to back out of it because I'm not sure I'll be able to handle it emotionally. It's working with animals, which I keep thinking is right for me, but when I think about the work itself, I feel depressed. I just don't think I have the heart for that field. I'm too sensitive. But, something keeps attracting me to that field, and I think it's just me seeking my mom's approval. I saw how proud she was of me when I did work with animals 10 years ago. I might be trying to fulfill her wishes rather than doing what's right for me right now. Actually, I think I've been doing that for the last 10 years, and I keep setting myself up for failure b/c maybe it's not what I really want to do. I love animals so much, but I think I sometimes can sense what they're feeling. It hurts too much to try to earn my living that way. So, I think I'm going to turn down the job that SEEMS to be so great for a job that a chimp can do. I have no one to talk this out with. I just tried talking with the BF, and it ended up in a fight. He never has anything positive to say, never. I had to spell out what I needed from him (just a little support), and he gets so frustrated and ends up yelling at me. I don't get it. So, I'm going to think about Bruce Lee now.