It wasn't meant to make you feel invalidated or to offend you. I was only making it clear that Obama is not telling the elderly and disabled (or anyone) to go home and commit suicide. I honestly do care that you can't find the medical care that you need and deserve. I don't understand why San Diego would be any different than where I live but it seems to be lacking. I know someone here in the same situation as you regarding government health care. She is being treated for a neurological condition and she seems to be getting very good care. Maybe Medicare/Medicaid quality varies by location.
Are you using Medi-Cal?