i really am not looking forward to it.

christmas anoys me... their's so much going on- giving of gifts, family gatherings, loads of christmas shopping... not to mention the end of the year and the thoughts of- well, that's another whole year of my life wasted... what do i want to live another year for?

then their's the fact that my family are the worst people ever, and have told me to not interfere with them, so their's the lonelyness (which is worse at christmas/ other holidays) because it seems most people have loving family around or they go somewhere nice.

yeah... christmas... blah. don't know why it was invented sometimes