Does anyone else experience that they´re constantly trying to run into the future, keeping super busy always putting goals in front of you, maybe to sort of keep running from the past? I feel like I did and can´t really stop myself, not completely, yet.

I´m guessing that when you CAN look back, or you don´t even have to, because everything´s "settled" there and you´re not bothered constantly, you can actually stop running and instead go step by step and also BE here, in the NOW.
I feel like it was for me like that before. There was no need to "run".