Just as tiny add-on info that might be useful. I SO wanted him to say it was because of ME and his feelings for ME that made him cancel his escort, but in all our talking about it, he never did. Just that it wasn't what he wanted, and is not what he is about. I wanted us to be a reason for him to have not gone ahead, but at no point was this mentioned. Since his 'confession' I've quizzed him over and over, as to why , and when he decided to book it, when he cancelled, even if he saw a picture of her on the website, what she looks like, for some strange reason I want to know what was going thru his mind. Apart from how horny he was ! Why if he booked it at 10am and cancelled it at 6pm, why for 8 hours was he o.k. With the
idea ?

We've talked it thru now and there's no point going over it.

He didn't go thru with it, and told me all about it, even that he booked someone who looked like me !

Occasionally he'll say ' I love you '
to me on the phone, never face to face.
This was one time I really needed to hear those words.

I think he does love me, in a compartmental way.

That's a whole different story !