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Originally Posted by rainbow8
struggling, I'm the same way too. When I feel close to my T, and super connected, it makes me feel frustrated with the rest of my life. It makes me wish I could see T every day!  If for whatever reason I feel distant from her, it's easier to go about my everyday life. It's such a push/pull. I want RL to be like therapy, but therapy, when I feel connected, is so much better that it's like being teased! Like a number of you said, then I want to reach out to T more because I feel so good. The best path is a middle ground, which is difficult.  |
I feel the same way. It's like "here bamapsych, you can have this... but only for 50 minutes a week." It's like putting candy in front of a kid and telling them they can only have a small amount.
I felt this teasing the most when my T invited me to her church. I went 2 times. I know without a doubt that she meant well. But she can have relationships with every single person there except for me. If I went there regularly, I'd have to see her hugging everybody, being friendly, having normal conversations, self-disclosing to others, etc. I'd have to be on the outside looking in since we can't have a normal relationship since we are T and client. Makes anger, sadness, and jealousy rise up in me. It's not fair.