Dear T

I really wish we could have left things in a good place. You ****ed up, but so did I. I wasn't thinking rationally. Hurt child mode again. This has all just been so hard, this last couple months or so. I knew this break would be difficult for me - I feel like you should have known that too - and I just felt like I asked for this ONE thing, and then it didn't happen, and then I felt rejected and stupid. Triggered bigtime. Unravelled. I wish I could have handled it better.
Sorry.

X
PS: I'm going to try to talk with you know who and get some perspective.