Well I know that my mother had a lot to do with it. She wouldn't "abandon" me permanently but I remember a lot of times being left alone at a young age at home. She worked and my dad worked, and I don't know why I didn't get any care from a babysitter so I don't know what she was thinking but that's what it all stems from for me. In addition I was a very sick child. I had very severe asthma and allergies so bad I wasn't allowed to go outside much if at all. I had been hospitalized numerous times (more times than I care to count) for pneumonia, and remember being left to the care of the nurses and drs, stuck in a plastic bubble. When I was home and sick I had everyone around me trying to care for me, but then when well, it was like I was almost invisible or at the very least, just a burden.. It's all in the past, but the ripples of such things probably will remain with me for life.

I didn't say all this for pity, just the facts