Hummer, can you do anything else with your ideas, "draw" them or bring them into other parts of your life in some way?

I would do a few things, even though you feel like you don't care. I'd still reply to the Curator's e-mail, let your friends know you're having problems and might not be able to participate as much as in the past. Maybe someone can come work alongside you, help you in some way? Maybe just come visit and chat? Getting out of my head, my endless thoughts (or lack of thought :-) and actually talking to a "real" person helps me.