((((((((( hummer ))))))))))00

Don't think that reading your words is a drag to anyone. You deserve to be heard and to have a place to vent! I hope that things will get better for you. What you are going through must be so tough, I can't even imagine it. You are very strong and brave for sticking it out this far and don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise!

Off course life will seem hard to you... you have so much to cope with! Don't beat yourself up about it, just remember small steps is the name of the game. All of us here have to learn that you can't change any kind of trauma in a day, it takes time...