You're most welcome enchanted...actually I learnt to deal with the fact that those people are not there to give me a dime! but I am by no means in a good position these days.. The pain of loneliness delivers mighty blows onto my face everyday...and the overwhelming pain has gotten so big now that I have become numb and lifeless...I'm sorry for rambling like this but I feel comfort by letting out the stuff that I keep locked up inside everyday...I've just learnt how to 'live' with loneliness, I have sure as hell not conquered it in the least!