AP"S... ohh the heavy hitting major tranquilizers... free will. Give a horse a tranquilizer, is the horse acting out of free will? I am tired of calling them AP's, neuroleptics, mood stabilizers, AD add on's, sleeping aides.... they are Major Tranquilizers.. and it is no wonder I felt like a wild horse being tied down while on them.

I guess calling them tranquilizers doesn't sound as appealing, or scientifically specific let alone helpful.

I was in the hospital, it was not forced. Did I feel like I had the right to refuse treatment when I was locked inside, not allowed to go outside for 5 minutes, not allowed to have my phone or any other personal belongings, not allowed to shave or shower with privacy, had a camera on my bed, and get in trouble for questioning anything, was dished out meds like crazy. When I was put on three AP's at once at max doses in the hospital, along with benzos and other meds, was I acting on free will? I could not even barely speak or walk, let alone think. I was not a danger to myself or others... I was manic and could not sleep, was not functioning. When the other patients began to express concern to me about why I was being given so many meds, and after passing out three times on the hallway floor.. it does make you wonder..why?

Ok I am obviously still upset about that. It was not exactly voluntary, I was declined for their partial out patient facility, and was taken by the staff to the hospital across the street, and told that it was voluntary but if I choose to not go they would have to have me brought in anyways. Nice choice, I was not on 72 hour hold I was there for almost two weeks.

Luaru, I am soo sorry that happened, I don't even have words to express how wrong that was.