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Old Nov 30, 2012, 05:11 PM
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Originally Posted by just_some_girl View Post
Yes, totally. I agree that it's easier - safer - 'in the moment' to be cut off and numb, less vulnerable - it's easier to speak, for a start... but I find for me it's ultimately distressing. I crave the closeness with T, the maternal warmth. If I'm 'comfortably numb' in session, usually I drive home feeling empty and alone, and by the time I'm curled up in bed for the evening I'm a mess, wanting a do-over.
this is interesting how opposite we are on this.....i as well crave the closeness and maternal warmth with T and i feel all warm and cozy in session and for probably an hour or two after it still feels good but then i start to have the empty and alone feeling and by the time i go to bed im all "omg i hate therapy and i hate my life and wtf was wrong with my mom and now im all aware of how screwed up things were and T is like 6 days away and only for 50min"....but if none of that occurs during session im all "i can totally live without her"....my life my otherwise still be in shambles and i will be avoiding all problems but i wont feel empty and motherless.

i say neither are a win-win...we need a middle ground!!!
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