Hi PlatinumHeart. I think your username is really nice !! I think that all these questions are rich. Because often when we search for answers, it means we are leaving the room for information. I am personally uncomfortable around people who are sure they have the answers. But I see a wealth of possibility for those who do not know, if that makes sense. One thing is for certain. I really do not know anything. But I guess at a lot. And I do say what I think. Knowing that what I think or feel changes a lot. But thats the way I like it.
I think that being overweight, and believe me I have spent many years there in the past, can be because of using food to soothe, comfort or even feel control. So its a tough one to take the actions to change that. I understand hating oneself for the body being overweight. I did that for years. And still do it when I am not feeling thin enough. Its really sad for anyone to have hate about themselves. But I do understand.
Here is what I think. I think that I, as a soul chose to be here in this body at this time to expereince certain things. Even imbalances, pain etc. Perhaps there is a greater purpose to the pain. And perhaps in the pain lays the opportunity to experience or heal something we, in our limited mind ( as opposed to the wisdom of our soul) cannot really understand. I do not know. I am just writing possibilities to muse.
I personally think that many of us chose lifetimes of great suffering and pain. And others did not. But I would not be willing to say that the life of a successful actor or business person etc is, on a soul level, any more powerful than the life of a person who lives with mental illness and great pain. Because I do believe that as souls sometimes the most painful lifetimes can be the most lofty on a soul level.
Having said that, I do want to say I am sorry for the suffering you live with. I want to let you know that I too live with suffering, with self hatred and much more. Thanks for asking this question. I think he has sparked some great posts in response.
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