Went tO the Doctor yesterday and the therapist.
The doctor noticed the cutting but thankfully was really nice about it and I was terrified. I shook and cried the entire time was just wanted outbof there. She gave me lexapro 1mg 3x day and some migraine meds. Though the sucky part is I have to go to a referral with a shink end of December yippee
The therapist was very hard too I told him about what triggered the self harm that it frightened me because I thought I had more control then what I actually did. I couldn't look at him when I told him and I'll say he has a very interesting floor. Lol It was so hard to tell them and I was so afraid. They always ask if I am sucidal something I think is a little funny because no matter if I was or wasn't I'd still answer I'm not. It was a hard session I was shaking so bad when I left. I talked a little about my pet steer my husband sent to slaughter and came close to having a panic attack and this was while on xanax