Im so sorry Salvator its so hard to feel good about ourselves when we give so much of ourselves, entrust our hearts and piece of mind into people we think care about us only to be betrayed and hurt time and time again, i can understand how your feeling i have lost myself so many times through bad connections with selfish people. it takes away so much of who we are. we try and be optimistic giving people the benifit of the doubt but we only end up getting hurt. i hope things get better for you and you find some good people who see you for the good kind person you are. This is a lovely site to be a part of so many supportive kind people, i hope you find some peace here and good people to help ease your load. take care