Hey Salvator it is hard to keep your heart open when it seems people hold so little value of friendships, it seems alot of people are selfish and put themselves above all others but there are some good kind people out there i think they are hard to find maybe because they too are suffering and have little faith in people as we do. its hard not to blame ourselves when friendships fail but we have to believe we are good people, we are suffering because we care too much i think. you sound like a good person, very honest and kind, maybe people see this as a weekness. i hope things get better for you and you dont blame yourself for how these people have treated you, its not a reflection on you but only on them, how heartless they are.