I am the same Salvator i try so hard to help people i think i am a good friend and do anything i can to make them happyy and feel good but when it come to me needing support they are nowhere to be found. i would love to call you a friend, you seem like such a genuine open kind person and friends like you are hard to find. i hope i can help you feel better about yourself. you are a good person, forget thoes guys they are hard and empty and dont deserve a friend like you