(( HUGS ))

I am so glad that you have the support of your T and feel validated. I went through a similar experience, and it was incredibly difficult to go through the process of feeling in danger due to taking steps to free myself. My ex husband was also mentally ill, and my T feared for my safety. He said that in all the years he's been a T (over 20), he never had a client be killed by their spouse, and he said that I am the first that he's imagined it to be a real possibility. Scary stuff.

I can honestly say that it was the best thing I ever did, leaving the marriage. My challenges are still difficult, but different in that I don't have to live in fear and walk on eggshells to that extent anymore.

Please try to work on building a support network - your T and PC are great resources. If you have family and friends to rely on, let them know of your intentions. You will need all the support you can get.