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Originally Posted by MissCharlotte
I know me better.
I believe more often that T "gets" my core wounded self.
(Just figured this out last week and it lasted a whole damned week.)
He says I want to be seen.
I think I want to hide.
I want to run away from H.
I don't want to be alone.
I'm hopelessly caught in a spider web that I wove myself.

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MissC,
I am so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time.
You have not woven a spider's web, you are weaving the web of life. Shame is often a feeling that makes one feel like they want to hide. Maybe you want to hide because of your shame is keeping you there, but maybe the part of you shrouded in shame wants to be seen. I'm so glad you are posting, I have missed you dearly.
You are not alone. Didn't we plan on going in the same mental institution when we get older and sitting on the porch in our rocking chairs? lol That was so long ago. I'm still crazy. You're in my thoughts