I certainly experienced close and distant sessions, had relatively calm times and frantic times, and times of dissociation and groundedness. But it never seemed to influence how connected I felt to my T and therapy outside of sessions. I guess I'm saying I never felt a disturbance in our alliance at the deepest levels, even when there were frustrations happening at more surface levels.

I wonder if it might have something to do with the way in which Ts show their support. I think Ts who demonstrate a lot of warm fuzzies may touch vulnerabilities more strongly. My T tended to be extremely calm, stable and consistent which seemed to help me develop the ability to experience feelings in a more contained and neutralized way. Maybe that carried over between sessions.