Bless your heart. What a sad story. You say that he NEVER loved you? My gosh, when why did he propose?

I'm so sorry you're going thru this. But you deserve something MUCH better than THIS! You certainly deserve someone who is going to love you unconditionally, warts and all; someone who will care for you thru sickness and health, just as the vows say; someone who will respect and cherish you! I KNOW you will find that. Let the healing begin!

And the healing WILL begin, my friend. Of course it hurts now - but that will subside in awhile, and you'll start to want to go out among people again and who knows? You might just find that "special person." And it might not take long at all. God bless you -- He knows you've been hurt, and He's watching over you. Take care. Hugs, Lee