When I wear tights under a skirt, I think I feel less restricted in moving about, because all you can see underneath my skirt is my tights, as opposed to bare leg/underwear.

I have an 11 year old son, and I notice when he and a friend are "working" on the ipad or handheld game or whatever, they sit knee to knee. There is such an innocent sweetness at an age where they often desire to have a wide berth around physical contact with another boy. I still remember the day that my son grabbed his friend's hand, and that friend shook it off. But I digress.

I guess the image I had of the two of you sitting on the couch, her knee against yours to make it easier for her to peer at your screen (it puts a lot of strain on the hips to have to lean across, hence sitting closer is functional) was of two innocent kids comfortable with each other in that "task." I didn't see it as sensual at all in your description, but I also know that I occasionally wonder if my T is coming onto me-- so I just think that part is normal. Once I was talking about a prior session (in a nice way, compared to my usual ****** whenever I bring up something from the past) and he used the word "afterglow" to ask a follow up question. But what I think I've learned is that he has a certain playfulness about him when he is feeling especially comfortable (or when he thinks I am not going to figuratively kick him in the b*alls). And that was what was evoked for me in your description of your session, she just seemed to have a playful edge to her words and behaviors-- and I think I've seen this before in your descriptions.

So I wonder if maybe your interpretation of her playfulness was that she was somehow pushing you away? Or that, like many of us when people come closer, we pull away, as a way to regulate (literally, like on the couch for you) the distance-- there is always something of a dance in a dyad. But I could see for myself how my T being playful might make me desire greater closeness, because maybe I'd see it as him not being serious about my oh-so-serious problems (sarcasm directed to myself, half-heartedly, not to you) or as him teasing me. So maybe the hug for you was about regulating the distance and bringing her close because you felt unnerved about either your own distancing or what you perceived as distancing from her.

I'd let yourself off the hook for a boundary violation. It's not that she protested being re-hugged, it sounded to me more like a "oh, Chopin's still not done, I'm going back" kind of thing. I mean unless you're chasing her around the room with your arms flailing while you wail, "Chopin must have hugs!", I really think you're doing okay. And in the context of the stuff you're working on, I think you might be a little hyper sensitive to shame from any kind of touch, and I think you can let this one go. (if you want, it's not like a bad thing to raise how you felt with your T, and probably good). Just saying, I don't think you need a self flogging for this one. *hugs*