bad thoughts bad things bad stuff bad thoughts bad sh...it!

I am not like the others here much like the others here but unlike the others here I cannot be specific cannot detect a problem select a problem anyone here will know this....brings me exceedingly exceptional pain and isolation at times outsider badly and so familiar....

but I'm so shielded unclassified...a disaster....a moody f...k...!

only I really see the moody one...hate it but not enough to die!

...there is an extra-ordinary ammount of thinking that goes on in any mentally ill mind....unimaginable only you know if you know do you know I'm sure you don't want to if you don't know and you agree if you do know about both those things.

it's all very cryptic in the mentally ill world...I call it a defence mechanism...

some people put on a seat belt or lock their door ...I think your thoughts and everyone elses more.

not much can ensure my safety except trusting in myself...and after society has torn me down and called me useless a madman!

then whats left...?

the boy arrived before the man and I trust him now...the boy was just a boy before anything went wrong