Thanks everyone for your help - things have improved immensely between my husband and I. Not perfect by any means but there is a little light at the end of this tunnel. He's still upset, untrusting - I don't blame him. I've validated his feelings and realized there is more in this life than me. So - I've got alot of work to do....good. We love each other and understand each other - this has almost given us a sort of "break through". It happened in a really awful, hurtful way but we are making the lemonade out of the lemons.

Things aren't always dark forever - the sun comes up. I'm a very lucky girl.

Thanks for your support!