You ARE in therapy aren't you sweetie? How often do you see your therapist? I pray you're in therapy -- you certainly need to be.

I was in therapy off and on most of my adult life -- and I'm 63 now. I started therapy in my early 20's. So I've had a lot of it. I also spent a short time (2 weeks) in a mental hospital, which I'm so grateful for! Back then, there weren't very many "nice" ones, but I got lucky and was put in a very nice one and treated great!

Perhaps inpatient would be helpful for you. You're able to see your psych every day, and also go into group. I found it to be of great help and it was a turning point for me.

Just know that you're in my thoughts & prayers. Please keep in touch? God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee