I definitely talked to T about the shame, it was a brilliantly agonizing session. I sat there feeling the intense shame with no defenses. T really helped me through it. It started to dissipate as I sat there with it, and as T talked me through it. It increased before I left. I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, only to go to work and feel ashamed because I feel incompetent. Only to have someone ridicule me while looking like a total idiot. How do I live with constant failure? I 'm not going to make it. I started feeling anxiety this morning about Monday. I slept all day.
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"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity." Edgar Allan Poe
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