I don't find you hard to engage.. Anytime. Ain't that weird?

James I was a contol freak... Right down to starving myslef to feel in charge of something.. Thats weird too.

Now I still seek to make order.. But it's different, I don't try to control everything around me, but I can choose what I do with it all.. I can accept what comes.. But I can also make something with it, often it's just choosing how I see it, if I can't do that then I dunno. Maybe I am weird. But it doesn't matter .. I am ok with this set up.