I've termed 'Gwabasfaar' as a new word to describe when you feel like you being led on in what you think is a blooming relationship. I've been trying to take this girl out for some time now, and every single time she puts it off; she says she has work but I've been giving her the benefit of the doubt.

Away from that (I'll admit the perceived rejection stings), I spent a large amount of the time since I met her thinking "don't become overly attached, if she turns you down you'll feel crushed". Now, I found out someone else crushed me.

Myself.

I told myself that if she pushed a date back and seemed like she wasn't making the attempt to stay connected-- or friends at least-- then I'd "cut my losses" and move on. When she did those things, as I was talking to her, being sweet, trying to stay involved while, on the inside, I felt like this little axe murderer was running around trying to chop me up. I didn't feel so much like she was rejecting me outright or being snobbish or mean to me. I think most of the pain comes from myself: forcing myself to let go, to cut ties, when I felt like we might have actually been making a connection.