Hi Nicholas - It sounds to me like you are the victim of depression, and you should probably see a therapist. Are you out of school? If not, you could see your school counselor. OR talk to your parents about it.

If you are out of school, please see a therapist - he can help you cope/deal with the depression. If you cannot afford a therapist, at least see your medical doctor.

I wish you the very best. Please keep us posted. Depression can be a very nasty illness to cope with. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee