The letter is a wonderful way to get started. I have found it rather difficult to talk about difficult things in T...even after 4 years. So, it's not unusual at all.

I can also relate to the idea of reading something the next day and not recognizing myself in it. I mentioned to my T recently that my feelings vacillate so much that it's scary at times how I can be ok during the day and then want to end it all at night. By the next morning, I'm back to being ok again. We're going to talk about it more during my next session, because it's a big issue for me right now.