...searching?
.....searching!!....something for something.....

senses desperate sense my senses are desperate....emotional sexual physical too bad it's gonna hurt me I am flying!...

and I ain't even arrived yet the decision is powerful there is movement inside me I will do freaking anything suddenly my universe is intact.....

warped mess it's intact...

so many times...so many times will I survive this time?

drug addict

push that aside and go to the place go to the place please make it to the place.......

where did this urge come from?
I was a cool kid...once.
now ?....

well it's obvious....I damaged myself...pumping gram after gram of meth into myself day after night after day for years and years.

no wonder my poor brain is a mess.....

lucky I have a spirit.....lucky the Angels help me.

the thing is...when you let go that bad??

all the bad stuff...and I mean all of it!....it comes