TY all of you. Especially Monkey- its true, memories aren't always friendly. I have felt some jealousy when I have heard ppl talk about fond childhood memories, esp of their parents bc I have so few. My parents were so much better as a couple than as parents of a child. They obviously figured that out AFTER they had me bc I was an only child and my grandmother more or less raised me but I wish I had more fond bday or holiday memories to fall back on like some of my friends have.

Chris- your message was very helpful. I do tend to forget that "normal" ppl get crazy upset over sh__ sometimes too and its not ALWAYS bc I'm BP that I can't "get over it" or "just buck up."