Hi all,

Tonight I am feeling very thankful and happy. Yesterday when hubby got home from work, he noticed my somewhat frazzled responses to my daughters demands for "do it SELF"! which means "no matter how much longer it will take me, don't touch me or help in any way because I want to do it all by my self". And I know that it is healthy for a two year old to become more independent, but when I'm making dinner and the dog is whining to go out and I'm trying to help dd get her outfit off to go potty, I only have so much patience. So, dear hubby suggested that I go for a weekend away to relax and enjoy myself. And here I am, two hours away in a nice hotel room, eating chocolate, watching tv, reading a book, and reading posts here on PC.

I feel so thankful for having a great hubby and a loving daughter (who has needed to call twice before bedtime since I've never been away). I love my family so much, and getting away for a few days helps bring this into fucus. For the past week, I have been having almost continual flashbacks (mild) and I remembered another part of the abuse on Thursday. Just when life sucks and seems to pull me down, I get a great pick-me-up. Tonight my littles have been here playing games without fear of being seen and my darker, angrier alters can come out without fear of alienating my dd. It is wonderful to be here with no responsibilities and no need to hide my selves.

Thanks for listening! Love to you all,

Elizabeth