Hi, Dee...welcome to PC!

I'm sorry to hear of your terrible situation. I was treated for depression for almost 10 years with no relief until they began treating me for bipolar instead which has been a major breakthrough for me.

Unfortunately, in the meantime, I have basically lost everything...jobs (too many to count), family, house, reputation, you name it, its pretty much gone. I at least had the comfort of knowing that my kids are with my ex and are being cared for well.

I can't tell you whether or not you should give up your kids. What I can tell you is that since I moved back home (Mom) away from them, there is a GIANT hole there that never goes away. I think about my girls every minute of every day. It is hard to raise kids when you are hounded by depression, but I know that often it was the joy and innocence that kids bring that kept me going from day to day.

I guess the only consideration really is what is best for your kids? Will they be better off being separated from you and one another? Your boy would do ok with his dad I imagine, but your daughter...I just don't know.

I know this hasn't been any help, but know that I am thinking of you and your kids...I hope that you can find your way through this.

DJ