Ya i already knew it was all my faughlt. i just always think in terms of today. like ill think "i have the whole weekend to work, i dont want to though, oh screw it, not my problem, im only worrying about today. thats future djjonson's problem." i only think of terms of today, i dont give a **** about myself for tomorow. and really beggining to become in the mindset of not giving a **** where my life ends up, i mean, i did care, but now that i know my life is gonna suck, i just dont care anymore. i bought 52 ounces of liquer today. im going to get really drunk on tuesday and for the rest of the month when i can. only cost me $80.00