Thank you both! I could use a pet somedays, but I also have a history of getting really tempermental cats that end up stressing me out more so than being a comfort. I am really picky when it comes to the personality of an animal. A dog would be nice, but being at school so much leaves long lonly days for a dog so I figured I'd hold out for a few years. I have medicine to help with sleep, but it makes me so sick, and I really dont trust what in medicine either especially when I get so ill from it. Every time it gets close to the time I want to lay down at night I just being to get so anxious, I am trying to be as medicine free as possible but I try to take an ativan to reduce my anxiety, but my dosage isnt high enough. I dont know why this is so hard to fight. I feel like the battle only ever begins when I feel too weak to fight back, and I really just need to stop rambling and sleep. sleep would be wonderful